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I'm going to see Blue October perform in Lawrence tomorrow for Joanie's birthday. :D Well, they're not performing for her, but tomorrow is her birthday and that is when they are performing. It's my present to her.

I'm SUPER excited. There will be many pictures. And videos. And I will go 'heeeee' a lot.

Ah, spring. I do so love spring. Everything is green and growing and the air smells so nice. I just wish it never got above sixty or seventy degrees.

We have an exercise bike, which I just spent fifteen minutes on. The last five were cooling down so my heart didn't explode when I went back to sitting on the internet. XD I'm so healthy u gaiz srsly. My legs are still kinda noodly.

Yesterday, I also took a walk with my friend Joanie. And now my feet hate me. I have the world's most hideous blister, and now I shall show you all!

WARNING NASTY PICTURES OF MY BLISTERY FOOT UNDER THIS LINE IF YOU'RE SQUEAMISH DON'T LOOK OKAY ACTUALLY IT'S REALLY NOT THAT BAD BUT WHATEVER HERE YOU GO

SPRING BREAK FUCK YEAH. Nine day vacation! GONNA ROCK THIS BITCH UP AND DOWN THE BLOCK.

Mostly I'm going to sleep. Also, we have an exercise bike. When it gets set up, I will make use of it, for I am quite fat and out of shape. Also, for some reason, I can't breathe in my house. At school, running around up and down flights of stairs winds me. At home, getting up and walking into a different ROOM does.

I have started reading an interesting book. It's called An Incomplete Education, and it's basically a collection of useless trivia that everyone should know. I'm close to halfway through.

We did blood typing today in anatomy. I'm type B! My dad and I can share blood. :D Apparently my mom is Rh negative, which I gather is bad? I know one of them can result in horrible miscarriages, but I don't know which one. Whatever. God, I love science.

I have two projects to do over this spring break. One is a shoebox thing for French, and the other is blatantly skipping out on presenting to my microbiology class. I'm gonna do a movie about polio. I have it mostly planned out, and I think it'll be pretty cool. It will be narrated by polio viruses! :D

Going to my dad's this weekend. Want to get my lip pierced. God, I love putting metal in my face. I wonder if I'm turning to a more socially acceptable and less harmful form of SI. Well, whatever. I like it. Speaking of piercings, I need to get someone to stick a needle through my face again and open up my eyebrow piercing. >< Which closed up because I'm stupid.

So my best friend is going out with this other girl named Lynne. She--Joanie, the friend--wanted to go with this girl named Cheyenne, who is nice but flaky and weird and has hella issues. And Cheyenne put her on hold, so she decided to go with Lynne, who is available and nice. And not as messed up.

So now she's happy and I'm feeling melancholy. It's been a year and I still can't shake this stomach-twisting love-something. She's seven years older than me, she's taken, she's half a country away, and I know it will never work and on one level I'm okay with that, but on another I just refuse to believe it. For a long, long time I would get really, amazingly sad over it, and it was the whole center of my life for a little, to the point where I couldn't go a day without thinking "God, I love her so much" and then I'd want to cry. Now I'm mostly happy, because it feels so nice to think of loving someone and I'm kind of scared to let go of it. It's such a bright feeling, like a big burst of yellow sun on grass in the middle of my chest, and it makes me feel warm and tight and good. I don't want to give that up.

Sometimes, though, it's a slow ache and a hole in my ribs. There's nothing much to do when it feels that way except distract myself, but... *sigh* I'm a lot better than I was, and the bits of sadness feel so much worse.

Then again, I could be worse. I could always be worse. I've been worse and I'm scared of feeling that way again. If I skip my pills for even just a couple of days--I never do it on purpose, mind you, I just forget--I start to feel like the whole world hates me. It's scary. I'm sad and angry and I want to hurt people and I think people hate me. So this little bit of gloom is a good trade-off for how happy I normally am.

Still, I felt like whining. WHINE.

PS: Schythr just showed me a cool new band and I have cold pizza. These are the joys of life.

This just in: Edoro is a stupid dumb stupid face!

I have two essays, two maps, eighty-four history terms, and around ten biology outlines. All due this Friday. ALL FOR AP CLASSES.

Why did I take these classes? Why didn't that little voice in my head speak up and say, "No, Edo, don't do it! You'll die!"?

Harghleblarghleargle.

So I've been making up a D&D character for about a week now, and today I finally got the chance to play her. She's a human cleric named Freya and basically looks like a chubby little lesbian. (Short, little plump, short blond hair...)

I'm playing with Joanie and one of Joanie's friends, Ally, with a guy we knew from middle school--Robbie--as DM. I spent the entire day at Joanie's, while Robbie and Ally came over around 3:30. We still had to make Ally's character and put the finishing touches on mine and Joanie's, which took about two and a half hours, so we didn't really start playing until six, six-thirty. But it was AWESOME.

Joanie's a whiny, dramatic, flamboyantly gay elf wizard. I am, as said before, a cute little gay cleric. Ally's a grumpy and violent dwarven fighter. Together, we...get in a lot of fights and don't get along. XD Ally started a bar fight, killed a pig, and angered a weretiger. All in TWO DAYS. It was awesome.

I'm neutral, tending towards good, while Joanie's good and Ally's neutral tending towards violent and stupid, so I have to mediate. It's pretty fun. Freya wants to just travel around the world and record everything she sees, while Ellian--Joanie's character--just wants to travel, and...I'm not sure what Fandarel--Ally's dwarf--wants. To get in fights, I guess. XD The elf and dwarf both hate each other.

It was way more fun than I thought, and I can't wait to do it again. Hopefully we'll all be free this coming Tuesday, as I'm ADDICTED now.

( 100 Facts! )

So I've had this assignment hanging over my head for a while. I had to do a review of the book And The Band Played On, and I just today got the rough draft back.

You know what my teacher said?

SHE SAID IT WAS EXACTLY WHAT SHE WAS LOOKING FOR. AND I DIDN'T NEED TO DO ANYTHING EXCEPT SPELLCHECK IT. FUCK YES.

1. Is there anyone on your friends list you would ever consider having sex with?
Indeed.

2. Sex in the morning, afternoon or night?
N/A

3. What side of the bed do you sleep on?
Well, I never share a bed, except when I spend the night at Joanie's. Then, I like to sleep next to the wall.

4. Do you masturbate?
NO. NEVER. IS DIRTY. >O All the fucking time.

5. How often? Lately?
Normally at least twice a day.

6. Have you ever taken your clothes off for money?
Nope.

7. Do you prefer showers or baths?
Showers.

8. Have you ever had sex in the shower or the bath?
N/A

9. Do you watch/read pornography?
NO. NEVER. IS DIRTY. >O Only all the time.

10. Do you want someone aggressive or passive in bed?
Either, I guess, although I'd definitely want someone who knew what they were doing BECAUSE I DON'T.

11. Do you love someone on your friends list?
Yes.

12. Do you know all the people on your friends list?
Mostly.

13. Would you choose love or money?
Love.

14. Your top three favorite kinks in bed?
Um...In reality: N/A
Hypothetically/in roleplay: BDSM, raep, and...er...cute virgin deflowering.

15. Has anyone ever gone beyond your personal line of respect sexually?
No.

16. Where is the most romantic place you have had sex?
N/A

17. Where is the weirdest place you have had sex?
N/A

18. Have you ever been caught having sex?
N/A

19. Have you ever been to a strip club?.
No.

20. Ever been to a bar just to get sex?
N/A

21. Ever been kicked out of a bar or a club for sexual reasons?
N/A

22. Ever been picked up in a bar?
N/A

23. Have you ever kissed or had sex with someone of the same sex?
Nope.

24. What's your sexuality?
Bisexual.

25. Had sex in a movie theater?
No.

26. Had sex in a bathroom?
No.

27. Have you ever had sex at work?
No.

28. Have you ever been in an "adult" store?
Not yet. :(

29. Bought something from an adult store?
NO. WAH.

30. Do you own any sex toys?
Not for lack of trying!

31. If yes, how many and what are they?
N/A

32. Does anyone have naughty pics of you or are you on film?
Nope. I've taken naughty pictures of MYSELF, but they've all been deleted.

33. Have you ever had sex with someone and called them the wrong name?
N/A

34. Have you ever had phonesex?
Nope.

35. Have you ever had cybersex?
Uh, I've roleplayed sex on the internet...probably not the same.

36. Do you think oral sex constitutes as a form of intercourse?
Uh...I dunno.

37. What's your favorite sexual position?
N/A

38. What's your favorite sex act?
N/A

39. Have you ever had sex with more than one person at a time?
No.

40.Who do you think has the guts to repost this?
No idea. Drelfina, maybe?

The vents at my dad's house aren't covered, so I stepped in one yesterday. The result was unpleasant. I have a big lump on my leg that hurts if you so much as think about touching it, and I'm pretty sure I broke my big toe. Wah. ;_;

I also have my twenty gallon tank back! It's been at Dad's since the fire, but now IT IS HOME. AND SO ARE ALL OF MY FISHES. Sadly, I lost Ethan. :( He died at Dad's a little while ago.

Everyone else is good. I have a bunch of cute guppy boys, including one absolutely gorgeous one with this deep orange tail and fins, and some weird guppy/swordtail mixes. Also, my cave fish are GIANT FAT FISHIES. YES THEY ARE.

I am SO GLAD that this week is over. (I get a day off tomorrow, yay! And then one on Monday, so FOUR-DAY WEEKEND FUCK YEAH.) I had so freaking much homework, and three tests, but I got everything done and think I did pretty well, so.

Also, I am drinking chai tea with milk. With a BENDY STRAW.

Folks, it does not get better than this.

As most of the people who read this know, my house was struck by lightning near the beginning of this past August. The fire didn't damage it TOO badly, but we had to live first in a hotel and then in a rental house until October while our house was repaired.

I've always loved storms.However, right at this moment, there's a thunderstorm going on, and all I can think about is: Should I unplug my computer? What if the house gets hit again?

No one was hurt during the fire. We were really, really lucky, and it honestly wasn't such a bad thing.But I think it gave me more of an awareness that, to take a phrase from Stephen King, the world has teeth and it can bite you with them anytime it wants. Terrible things can happen, and you just don't know until they've already happened.

Lately, things have been popping into my head at random moments. Here is one of them.

***

One day I woke up early, just after down, and when I went outside I saw something amazing. A hundred purple flowers had grown up overnight, and inside each of them was a little kitten the size of a golfball.

Instead of mewing, the kittens sang: blue Wednesdays and pancake batter, flour on the counter in the shape of my mom's hand, the summer days that lasted forever where I could run and run until my feet bled and then keep going, on and on, leaving my crimson trail to dry sticky behind me and then I'd come home and laugh at the way my feet looked with no more skin.

They turned the air into dust in sunbeams and dewy spiderwebs at six am, made everything those quiet hours before life starts. They sang clouds and blankets and hammocks hanging heavy with snow, and the beauty of everything broken and everything new. In their voices was the whole world and everything loved, everything needed, everything dear.

Then the flowers closed up and turned into dust, floating on the air; they covered the whole country and then the whole world, and no one who breathed could hate anymore.

don't wake me i plan on sleeping in

If you use Firefox and don't have stumpleupon, get it. It's seriously fun.

Also, last night, I had Joanie over, and we decided to make petit fours. It...could've turned out better. I have a bunch of pictures sitting on my camera which I shall upload later, because...well, it was fun, at least.

Ohgod it looked like we disemboweled somebody and made a cake out of their intestines.

It's a learning process! Also, I want to make them for my French class, and they are difficult, so...uh...practice is good. Practice is very good. (Next, I want to make FRUIT petit fours! They look cute.)

This is a little random, but... Could anyone tell me WHY the iPod touch is so popular? I had a first generation iPod, and it was great, except for the touch controls. They were annoying. I'd put it in my pocket, and it would randomly switch songs. I used it to listen to music while at the gym, so, as you can imagine, that was pretty annoying.

So it seems to me that Apple has simply put the worst thing about the first iteration of their product and sold it to you as new and exciting. Why does this work?

PS: If you haven't, go check out pandora.com. It's an awesome free internet radio site. Only works in the US, apparently, but Schythr, if/when you read this and you want to check it out, I'll give you a US zipcode and we'll see if it works.

I am barefoot in the back yard with melted snow chilling my toes and as the wind rustles the dark around me, I have never been so content.

The moon is too bright for the dark to scare me now.

I got 100 out of 50 on my microbiology paper.Whoo!

Next, I have to write the first draft of my book review. It's due Friday. ;_; Ms Monaco is trying really, REALLY hard to kill me. But I will forgive her because WE'RE WATCHING A MOVIE ON EBOLA TOMORROW.

Also, I took out like half my guppies' water and then realized I had no water conditioner, so they've been half-empty since last night. Poor babies. The filter's still going, and my mom, who is the most awesome person in the world, got me some AquaSafe on her lunch break. Yay for my mom!

I made two different kinds of cookies last night! First I made coconut and lime macaroons, which are DELICIOUS, by the way, and then I made a giant brittany butter pan-cookie. XD Which is less delicious, but my dad likes it so whatever.

In related news, if I could just spend every second of my life baking and then eating cookies, I could die happy. (And I would. At forty. Of a heart attack. Which is not the point!)

I would just like to announce to anyone who cares that I have had my swordtail, Ethan, for one year! When I got him, he was a little baby. I thought he was a girl, in fact.

Now he's a big ol' orange guy swimmin' around, makin' babies with his girlfriend. Yay Ethan!

*goes off to take fishpictures*

There is a game out for the Nintendo DS. Its name is Meteos, and it is the best goddamn game I've ever played. If you have a DS, get this game. If you don't, buy one so you can get this game.

Meteos is like the bastard child of Bejeweled and Tetris. Like Tetris, you have colored blocks falling from the sky, but they're only one shape. You can't move them while they're falling; you have to arrange them once they're in their designated column. You can only move them up or down, and, like Bejeweled, the goal is to make matches of three or more of the same color.

However, Meteos is also like something really awesome. Something without a name. The blocks are a number of different colors, meant to represent the different elements. You can play on different planets, each of which has a different background, different music, and differently shaped blocks. They're all the same elements, but some are squares and some are odd geometric shapes. Sometimes they have different textures.

The premise of the game is that there is this planet, planet Meteo, which sends these blocks off to attack other planets. By matching blocks, you launch them into space at your opponent. It has a startrip mode wherein you travel through the galaxy to planet Meteo and then defeat it. There are several ways to play startrip mode, from a straight line to planet Meteo to a web of selections starting with one planet and ending with, I believe, eight different paths to eight different endings. There's another, non-linear mode, where you must complete certain quests during your battle, and the planet you can choose next depends on whether or not you complete the quest.

It's super mega fun. GET METEOS NAO.